猜火車：跑啊跑的浪擲青春

Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, s, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin' else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who needs reasons when you've got heroin? 

（ Trainspotting ）

最近常看到電影猜火車的小說又被拿出來賣，想說來複習一下好了，年輕的Ewan McGregor 

真是非常稚嫩可人，不過紅磨坊裡面唱著I hope you don't mind 的他也很純情就是了，歐比王就弱了點。

一開場Ewan對著鏡頭跑啊跑，邊喃喃前面那一段有關選擇的台詞，不知道為什麼我想到村上龍的跑啊高橋，無所事事的頹廢，無所事事的不選擇，無所事事的藥和性，對待業青年來說還真是不怎麼勵志。

電影非常好，有一點馬奎斯魔幻寫實的味道，我非常喜歡在全英國最髒的廁所裡泅泳那一段。只可惜（也可以說幸好）最後Ewan做得最後一件壞事是選擇洗心革面，大步向前走，選擇人生，選擇工作、家庭、大電視、冰箱，並且已經開始期待，選擇，直到死去。

非常不陳腔濫調的說教。

最近我的人生非常dejavu，像有個上帝在頭底指揮那樣。複習完猜火車的隔天，在楊乃文The Wall 的mini concert，聽到了電影裡面我非常喜歡的Perfect Day；和朋友在師大夜市蹲坐著吃滷味討論工作/人生的導師mentor之必要性，抬起頭來看到閃亮亮的剪髮店曼都 mentor招牌，我不得不想像摩根費里曼 （除了它還有誰適合演出上帝）在雲端裡呵呵笑，收集巧合然後賦予它們意義，所以我的確應該以行動來選擇什麼。

不過Pefect Day好好聽喔。而且在YouTube可以找到很多版本，比方說Lou Reed自己的木吉他版本，下面的是陽春的ost版本，畫面很乾，但音樂美妙。

Lou Reed - Perfect Day

Just a perfect day,
Drink Sangria in the park,
And then later, when it gets dark,
We go home.

Just a perfect day,
Feed animals in the zoo
Then later, a movie, too,
And then home.

Oh it's such a perfect day,
I'm glad I spent it with you.
Oh such a perfect day,
You just keep me hanging on,
You just keep me hanging on.

Just a perfect day,
Problems all left alone,
Weekenders on our own.
It's such fun.

Just a perfect day,
You made me forget myself.
I thought I was someone else,
Someone good.

Oh it's such a perfect day,
I'm glad I spent it with you.
Oh such a perfect day,
You just keep me hanging on,
You just keep me hanging on.

You're going to reap just what you sow,
You're going to reap just what you sow,
You're going to reap just what you sow,
You're going to reap just what you sow...